No Longer Here (FmF)
Linking up with Lisa Jo Baker for another Five minute Friday. Prompt: Together
Together. She never knew that word before. Till she found him, or rather till he found her.
And since that day they were always together, but not like two peas in a pod. She hated peas.
She just knew she always wanted to sit across the table from him. To be the one to hear his stories again and again. And she did.
And when the doctor used the c word she knew what he meant, but she refused to believe it.When he slipped downhill fast she held onto the denial that had become her new companion.
She couldn’t be alone, she screamed inside. He had to be here. He’s all she ever knew. He’s the one who accepted her as she was.
And yet, he is gone. He left when the cancer took over. He changed before her eyes.
And he forgot things. Like who he was, and why he was in a rehabilitation place.
“Can we go home now?” he would ask each time.
And then there was the day he said, “Oh, I get it, I am home.”
Sometimes he forgot they were together. He spoke about her, but only to others.
She misses him so much. Too much to think about. Instead she shuffles into the quiet kitchen to make a cup of lonely coffee.
Petting one of the cats on her way to the other room, she forgets why she went in there.
Alone is her new life and she hates it. He wasn’t supposed to leave her. It wasn’t in her plans.
Pretty soon it will be dark and she’ll pull covers over her tired body. And maybe if she’s lucky she’ll fall asleep.
But hopefully she won’t dream of him. It’s too hard waking up to find out he’s gone all over again. That they are no longer together.
About Anne Peterson
I write words you can feel, sometimes they rhyme. If I'm not writing, I'm telling stories from my head, to little ones who call me grandma.