The year is almost over. For some, it’s been a year of hard times, lots of tears.
While others may wonder if the coming year will be as good as this one.
We have finite minds. It’s the way God made us. But I wonder if we could handle some things, knowing they were coming.
God in his wisdom decides what we should know. And it’s in his timing.
We think we need to know now.
When I sat in the courtroom at 26th and California for my sister’s murder trial I remember thinking. This whole thing would be easier If I just had more information. Then maybe I’d feel more in control.
I was wrong. The more I found out, the worse I felt.
We are encouraged to walk by faith. I’d rather walk by sight.
God wants to develop my faith muscles. The world tells me, “Be independent.”
God says, “Take my yoke upon you.” “Don’t lean on your own understanding.”
Life is hard
If life were easy, we wouldn’t need God. We’d do well by ourselves, thank you very much.
But God has things in store for us, things we can’t imagine. And he reveals them, a little bit at a time.
He asks us to trust him. We’d rather call the shots.
We say God is good at orchestrating life, but then we keep grabbing the baton out of his hand. (Tweet that.)
I remember when he said to me,
“Open your Hand”
What is that you are holding in your hand
in your fist that is closed ever tight?
What is that you are purposely keeping from me,
for you feel that you have the right?
Don’t you know as you grow in your walk with me,
I can see even things that you hide?
Oh, if you only knew what’s in store for you,
you would open your hand so wide.
I once heard a speaker say regarding our responses to God, “delay is still disobedience.” Ouch.
I agree with God on what needs to be done, sometimes. But I often dance with him about his timing. I even try to take the lead.
God tells us to keep in step with him. Instead, I’m either behind him, pushing him. “Come on God, let’s go.”
Or I’m ahead of him trying to drag him along. God is heavy.
And all the while I proclaim I’m God’s daughter.
Well I am. But sometimes I’m his stubborn daughter.
2014 is Almost Here
I like new beginnings. Endings are sad.
So here I am packing up 2013, so I can welcome the new year.
But first, I want to say thank you.
God, I had no idea what you had in store for me in 2013, you had me launch a book, you took my brother Steve home. There were health challenges for me, for my brother George. Yet, none of this surprised you. You are all-knowing.
And while I have no clue about this coming year, you are the God of all time. You’re already there.
Give me wisdom God. Help me when I want to run ahead of you. Help me rest under your wings.
And when you ask me to do something. Let me take off my pride and just listen. You know better than I do. No matter how I come across.
Thank you for this year, Lord. Help me follow you better in 2014. I pray this in your Son’s precious name. Amen.
About Anne Peterson
I write words you can feel, sometimes they rhyme. If I'm not writing, I'm telling stories from my head, to little ones who call me grandma.